The last two weeks have been an interesting introduction to getting fitter and turning the clock back my middle aged body. Getting up earlier than I used to so that I can go for a run or a ride before work has been both easier and harder than I thought.
Last Friday I didn’t go for a ride in the morning, Jane was taking the kids to compete in the NZ Secondary Schools Cycling champs down in Palmerston North and Friday morning was the last day that I would see them for 4 days. So I stayed home and spent a little more time with the family before they all headed off for 4 days. It wasn’t a difficult choice, not going for a ride, as the whole point of getting fitter/healthier is to ensure that I can spend quality time with the family in the future. It was made even easier by the fact that it was raining quite heavily at the time so I just decided to ride when I got home from work that night.
Except I didn’t… and then I didn’t on Saturday either, and I woke up on Sunday and all I could think about was the fact that my exercise stats for would be broken, I wouldn’t have achieved what I set out to do. Motivation is a strange thing, for some people it appears that they can motivate themselves really easily, others seem to rely on others to motivate them, or at least how others perceive them.
I’m not sure what motivates me, I’m pretty sure that I’m not motivated by others, or others perception of me. I’ve never been much of a team player, I was never that good at ball sports which meant that I just didn’t see the point in taking part in something that I wasn’t very good at. I’ve always preferred to be active in ways that pit me against me – Rock climbing, tramping (hiking), even when I ran or biked I would do it to go somewhere, never competing except with myself, making myself go that little bit harder/faster than I had previously.
So I guess that means that I’m internally motivated, but the challenge is going to be maintaining that motivation for the next 16 months. I don’t have the answers yet, but I’m sure I’ll explore this theme more over the coming months. My motivation on my run today was simply to get to the next driveway up the hill I was running up, one driveway further along than I had the last time I ran in the same time I did previously. Even better was the view when I turned around to come back down again. That was motivation enough today.